The Inconsistent Battle

Something my wife does, which is brilliant, is making a group of things work together as a whole. She can find some of the most unrelated objects and next time I see them they’re all together sprayed in a beautiful array on a side table. She has an eye for decorating. This goes beyond just decorating though. Even her pictures she works very hard to make them cohesive. She loves to look back on all her items and see a blend of art that any onlooker could appreciate.

I admit, I envy this talent. Honestly I wish I could have the same one. Not necessarily for decorating, but for writing. I swear every time I sit down to write it’s on something that really isn’t anything except a desire to write. I don’t every feel like I have enough time to sit back and really investigate an idea before I feel the need to just sit back and write. Then I’m left of a smorgasbord of ideas thrown sporadically in a blog.

That’s what this is though right? The whole purpose of this blog is so I can just write without the burden of consistency. Yet I honestly want to have something beautiful people can appreciate. At this stage do you know how many of my posts have been about not really knowing where I’m going with this thing? But that’s the thing, I love writing. It’s tough getting older and not feeling like there’s enough time. Most of that, I think, comes from easy entertainment that can distract from a stressful day while writing takes a bit of effort.

So, I’m sorry this is all random and repetitive. Maybe on day I’ll lock down a solid theme and people will look back on these early days and think, “wow, this is so different,”. Yet again, maybe life will keep being crazy and I’ll only be able to reminisce on the challenge of doing something I love. I hope for the first. I hope I can write better, cohesive, and consistent. I hope I’ll finally finish my book that has taken a back seat for the last three years of my life.

Hope leads to action. Writing these blogs are my step one. Hence my great battle with inconsistency. I write to fight against inconsistency, but I’m inconsistent to fight against leaving writing too far behind. You’d think it would be easier to do something you love, but honestly, do you really love something if you’re not fighting for it. It’s when things get hard you prove your love.