Paradox

I think I’ve had a lot of blogs about my blog. That fact is, I don’t really know how a blog works. It’s not like a journal. I’m not writing all the deep, dark secrets of my soul. It is a little personal, though. I express thoughts I don’t generally talk about to anyone. How often has been a major question in the matter. Do I write daily, just a few times a week, or whenever I want?

Writing in a blog is like a casual Friday. There’s still a hint of presentation present in your words. You know someone could eventually read what you’ve written, but you’re also not running as tight a ship as writing an article. A journal is definitely more like walking around naked in your house. I think blogs can sometimes go that far, but most people don’t come to a blog for that much exposure.

So far, I’ve honestly treated this blog as a more paranoid casual Friday. I know I don’t need slacks and a button-up shirt, but I overthink the t-shirt and wonder if I should go shorts or jeans. I think too hard about what someone might want to read rather than just writing. Some might not think that, but just like my causal clothes might not jive with everyone, my writing won’t either. No matter how much thought I put into it.

I set a schedule for myself recently. I write one blog for Wednesday, just something general. I then write a Sunday blog, usually religiously themed. It was a good idea, I thought, until I really thought about what a blog is. A blog should just be random thoughts, right? I shouldn’t be structuring it to two days a week, I should feel free to write as much or as little as I want. I don’t want to write too little, though, because I don’t want people to lose interest or disappoint someone who might enjoy hearing the blog.

It’s all a crazy mess of should I, shouldn’t I; how much, how little?

Ultimately, writing because I have to write is not the purpose of my blog. I will write though, because I want to write, maybe more than I want to write, so I continue to write. Now you know why I called it Paradox.